The Antagonist and the Comrade.

Everyone needs connection with other people and that's what we called "socialization". When we socialize we tend to make friends, and by having friends, we share moments, memories and experiences with them and show who really we are, and this makes a good connection. But not all that we socialize with can work out a good bond, some can lead to incompatibility that no matter how hard we try to adjust with them, it can’t really work out and it will most likely appear that the both of you are opposing forces by which he/she is the antagonist of your life and you’re the comrade. Sounds like a typical story in the movie wherein there is a person who’ll ruin your whole life, wherein his/her happiness is to make your life so miserable. NOOOO! SO FREAKING BAD!  SO CRUEL!  There are times that you want to runaway but you can’t, because you already have a connection with him/her and the worst part is, he/she is already a part of your life. SO AWFUL!  There are also times that you want to slap them in their faces and punch them so hard by being so annoyed of the way they treat you, but you can’t because your conscience tells you that it’s not the right thing to do and you should not waste your time struggle against those kind of tactless, inconsiderate, uncaring, unsympathetic, insensitive, nasty, obnoxious people, instead just focus on yourself on how you make up your own life despite of the miserable life brought by the antagonist of your life. It’s just sad to think that as a comrade you can’t defend yourself completely from that bad wicked antagonist because there will be consequences and there are things that you consider: FIRST, if you struggle against him/her it can cause you to a more chaotic life, so it is much better to calm down and just ignore whatever he/she says and do. SECOND, He/she will not stop to ruin your life and it will be worst than ever. So, for the betterment of everything, all we have to do is: FIRST, Pray, ask for God’s guidance to help you overcome the unpleasant feelings. SECOND, put everything on a calm approach. THIRD, Just ignore and try not to be affected with what he/she says and do. FOURTH, Don’t involve yourself in the bad vibes that he/she possessed. We just have to accept the fact that the antagonists exist in our lives for some reasons that God used the good ones as an instrument to eliminate their wickedness and transform them to a good one.

Let them do whatever they want to do, what important is, you prove to yourself as well as to that wicked antagonist that despite of  the miserable life that he/she gave you, you never give up and you possessed this good heart that he/she don’t have. And at the end, who’ll succeed? Of course the good one, the comrade in the story who showed the goodness of her heart and not the bad wicked one who has nothing to do but to ruin someone’s life and showed a horrible attitude. He/she may be the winner at the beginning but the loser at the end!

Explore, Experience and Learn.

 As we grew up we matured physically, mentally, emotionally and we learn a lot of significant things from our experience and exploration, but those are just a key we are the only ones who can nurture ourselves.  Those matters tend to bring us through developing our personality in terms of coping with the environment we used to have as well as initiating a good relationship with the folks we knew and those we will encounter in the future. In 18 years of my existence I can say that my experiences are not yet sufficient in dealing with the mysterious side of humankind and ironic aspect of reality. As a teenager with a curious characteristic, I may not be matured enough to cope up with things surrounding me like depression, so much stress, confusion and personal decisions. I think that there’s a missing puzzle that I should find out to deal with it completely. That’s why I tend to explore new things for me to gain more experiences and learn from it.

Stop, Let go and Take action

LOVE? a simple and very familiar word but complex in meaning. All of us experienced to love and to be loved. It is a special feeling that we share not only with someone special but to family, friends and everyone.
But why is it a big deal and why some of us becomes sensitive or emotional when it comes to conversations regarding love? Those are some of the simple questions about love that we cannot answer. Because when we're talking about this matter, we only based on our very own feelings and emotions which are subjective cues that we are the only ones who can feel. And those are unexplainable which cannot be reasoned out by why I feel this way? or why I chose this person?
Each and everyone of us has our very own experiences when it comes to love. It started when we found that someone who may not meet our standards but yet stolen our heart and fill the missing piece of our life. By this, we'll experience feeling of being inspired, being delightful each day even how tough our life is, being thankful for having a wonderful life despite of the circumstances that we encountered and sometimes being hurt, having so much heartaches and trying to forget. We may differ in terms of experiences but we can all relate with each others emotions.


When I watched this video entitled "Traffic light Sad-Love-Pain", I was really touched by the message and realizations come up to my mind. All I can say is woah! this video is so nice, a heartwarming one. It touches the hearts of those who watched it and I'am one of those.
According to the video, "Love is like a traffic light, there are three colors which becomes a guide for us to know when to stop, to let go and to take action."

STOP- Loving someone so much doesn't always mean they're the right one for us.
LETTING GO- Letting go doesn't mean giving up, but rather accepting that there are things that are not meant to be.
TAKE ACTION- While someone breaks your heart, there will be someone else to fix it.

Reflect.

A movie-inspired love story

Whenever I watch romantic movies, I always picture myself as the major character with the one I love. It sounds funny, but in reality all of us dreamed to be one of the girls in a romantic movie like Kirsten Stewart, Lindsay Lohan, Anne Hathaway, Hillary Duff, and so on and so forth. To be like them in a particular romantic movie is like being a princess in your whole life with a happy ending with your loving prince.
But I wonder why I keep on doing this stuff the fact that movies are just movies, it is somehow related to reality but never been exactly like what happens in reality. Why is this so? hmmm, maybe because, in my life I haven't found the right one, who'll love me the way I am, who'll cherish every single moment we had and the one who'll love me for the rest of his life despite of all my imperfections. That's why I imagine myself with an anonymous guy in a romantic movie, in that way, I can somehow see myself happy with the guy who loves me even in a short period of time with limited scenes. And when the time comes that I finally found "him" whoever he is, I can say that before I found you, I picture myself in a romantic movie with an anonymous guy not knowing that it is "you" the missing piece in my heart. <3 :))

Where are you now?

To my favorite teacher who told me, "never give up."
To my highschool crush who I thought I really loved
To the girls I miss and the guys we teased, where are you now?
To my ex-bestfriends don't know how we grew apart
To the face I see in my memories where are you now?
To my first love, I thought that he was the one
To the ones I loved, but didn't show it enough
Where are you now?

I know we'll never see those days again
And things will never be that way again
But that's just how it goes
People change but I know I won't forget you

To the ones who cared and who were there from the start
To the love that left and took a piece of my heart
To the few who'd swear, "I'd never go anywhere"
Where are you now?

Where are you now? cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how to live like I do
If it wasn't for you, I would never be who I am
If it wasn't for you I'd be nothing
Where are you now?

Message in a locker.

*Another inspiring story which comes from the same source as the previous one (The wake).
This story entitled “Message in a locker” talks about the essence of life, hope and change. Once again, enjoy reading!


Illegal drugs, beer and cigarettes-these made up the life of a sophomore student named Justin. He failed his subjects, repeated a year level, bullied his schoolmates and vandalized school walls. He grew up this way because he could not accept that he have a broken family. He never appreciated life and all the other blessings that it gave him.
Despite of Justin’s personality, Nica was always there for him. She was once Justin’s childhood friend and now, his secret lover. She put her trust in Justin and she did not want to give up on him. She believed that Justin would change, if not for her, at least for Justin, himself.
Every morning that Justin woke up, he blamed God for giving him another day to suffer. Everyday, he is involved in school fights, which caused him to be a daily visitor at the office of the principal. Everyday, Nica posts notes on Justin’s locker. She wrote quotes and messages about life and how wonderful it is to be alive. Before Nica goes home in the afternoon, Justin would always approach her and give back the notes. Justin would shout at Nica, “WHO ARE YOU TO SAY THIS? JUST STAY AWAY FROM ME! I DON’T NEED YOU!”, and then he laughs at her. This was the scenario every afternoon at the corridor. But Nica was persistent. She never gave up.
These events lasted only for a month because Nica died due to cancer. There were no more notes on Justin’s locker. Justin missed the notes and especially the young lady that he used to bully every afternoon. The week after Nica’s death, Justin did not come to school. He stayed alone in his room, locked up, and found himself always thinking of Nica. All the memories flashed back to him. As days passed by. He realized the meaning of Nica’s messages. He realized how important life is. He was sorry for everything that he had done wrong.
After the long week of thinking, Justin finally came to school. Hew as not the “bad guy” anymore, but was the new Justin-nice, polite and friendly. He became active in school activities and studied his lessons well. His friends were amazed of his transformation. Since that day, Justin never did anything bad again. Every time he was asked by his schoolmates of the reason why he changed, only one answer came out from him, “This was because of Nica, the greatest blessing that I had ever received in my life.”


-So inspiring. This story points out that change is not only subjected to those who are willing but change is open for everyone. Like what happened to Justin. He seemed to have no direction at all and hopeless to attain the change he needs and yet Nica came into his life as his companion, who ignored his imperfections and looked on his good side. Who accepted and loved him for who he is. And most of all, she became God’s instrument for Justin's transformation. Hope is certainly present in every situation, it serves as the light in the darkness, a smile in every tears and sense of sight to those who are blind.

The wake.

*Let me just share to you this inspiring story from our literary portfolio in high school the “La Recogida”, wherein I was a part of it. This story entitled “The wake” talks about love and forgiveness. Enjoy reading and hope you’ll seek inspiration in the story. Thanks. 


Ann woke up and found herself lying on a hospital bed.
“Where is Martin? How is he?” With no one to answer her, Ann forced her weak body to get up and find her boyfriend. She found him, lying unconscious at the ICU. Her heart started to break when she saw Martin’s mangled body. The doctor saw her and talked to her. “How are you dear?” Ann didn’t mind what the doctor said. She just wants to know the situation of her love.
“How is he, sir?”
“I’m sorry to tell you this but Martin’s spinal cord has been damaged during the accident. He has a low chance of survival. If he will be able to fight and cope up, half of his body will surely be paralyzed.” The doctor replied. Ann’s tears started to fall down. She cannot say a word. The doctor comforted her and told her, “I promise to do my best to save his life. Prayers, Martin needs prayers.” Ann nodded and the doctor left her.
She blamed herself for what happened. Ann just broke up with Martin because of a misunderstanding. Martin could not bear it so he asked Ann for another chance. While Ann was walking home, Martin approached her, begging for forgiveness. Ann didn’t listen and continued to walk. While crossing the road, Ann did not see the approaching car, and then Martin jumped in to save Ann.
“If only I have listened to him, listened to his explanations, he wouldn’t be lying here!” Ann held his hands. She closed her eyes and started to pray.
While praying, Martin woke up. Ann could not believe it. She started to praise and thank God for the blessing.
“I’m sorry. I became selfish and…”
Martin interrupted her. “Shhh…It’s alright. Will you forgive me?”
“Yes! Yes! I love you.” Ann hugged him.
As time passed by, Martin got well. They got married. Ann worked hard to earn a lot because Martin cannot work. He was half paralyzed. In spite of that, they lived happily. Every single day of their lives they shared joy and love.
They both loved nature. They often did star gazing. They go to different places where they can experience the presence of nature. These things brought them closer to each other. On one nature trip, Martin told Ann, “You know what? I want to have my wake before I’m dead”.
“Stop that!” Ann replied. For an instant, the place was filled with silence.
Martin continued what he was saying.” Why should everyone else enjoy my wake and not me?” Ann was speechless
Everyday, every hour and every minute, they would make each other feel the happiness that only true love can give. Everything seems to be perfect for the both of them.
One night before going to bed, Martin told Ann, “Thank you for giving me this wonderful wake. I love you very much.”
“What are you talking about?”
“Never mind, good night baby.” Then he smiled and kissed her.
When Ann woke up, she heard the beeping of the vital sign monitor. She realized that all that happened was only a dream.
“Tooooooot……..”
Martin was now dead. Ann wept. She now understood what Martin said. Martin appeared in her dream for some reasons. First, to get the forgiveness he wanted, Second, to settle all things, Third, to let Ann feel how much he loved her and lastly, to experience his own wake and enjoy it.
“Wait for me in the next life Martin, wait for me.” Ann told Martin suddenly a cold wind caressed Ann. It was Martin. It is his way of saying goodbye to his love….for the moment.


-Aww, a heartwarming one. Isn’t it? Love is indeed the most powerful phenomenon in this world. Nothing can ever break the union between two lovers, even a single mistake that can eventually lead to separation resolves to forgiveness, and most awful, even if death verge on, they still have their never-ending love for each other, an endless love. Just like what happened to the story of Martin and Ann, for a single wake that Martin desired, everything happened, the forgiveness that he’s longing for and the moment with Ann that he yearned to express his unconditional love just for the last time.

Life is unfair but God is definitely good!

Life seems to be complicated. In every situation that we subjected to, there are trials, twists and turns, troubles, tribulations, chaos, confusions, frustrations, uncertainties, mystifications, commotions, hatred, depression, sufferings, sorrow, afflictions, distress, miseries, pain, sacrifices, anger, antagonism, fears, anxieties, doubts and cynicism. In spite of this, we wonder what life conveyed us to be. For instance, we intend to relinquish and surrender everything and just depend on what fate will lead us to. We may not know, at some point in time, we’re in the middle of no where and seemed to have no direction at all.

But despite of all the negative aspects of our existence, GOD constantly guide and protect us all the way. He might not respond to our prayers instantaneously, but HE assures us to fulfill our prayers in the right time and circumstances. He let us experience the pessimistic side of reality for us to attain the real meaning of LIFE. It’s just like, without pessimism we can’t gain optimism. And with optimism, Life would be worthwhile. GOD moves in mysterious ways, all we need to have is our deep faith and whole trust to HIM. At times, we are always asking for instant miracles as signs of his protection, but the truth really lies in our hearts.

A twist in my story.

 *Hello everyone! :)) Welcome to my blog! this is my very first post. My first blog is all about myself. So to those who don't know me yet, feel free to read this one. Enjoy reading! mwaaah! :))

       ANGELICA ANN SANTOS TEJADA

"Angel"

Who is she?

Other people think that she's a snob.

but, it's a BIG NO! coz when you come to know her better you'll realize that she's not what you think.

she has a good heart to everyone.

that's why she took up nursing.

coz she believe that nursing is not only a profession.

but it is also a way to show how you care for other people.

she's also a GOOD FRIEND.

she may not always be at your side but she assures you that whenever you need help, she will be right by your side.

she experienced to fell in love with someone.

in fact, she enjoyed the feeling of being in loved.

but, not all love stories come up with a happy ending.

Sometimes, there will be sad moments in a love story. :(

she was HURT.

and she cried to express all those sad feelings within her heart. :'(

but behind those sad moments and heartaches that she experienced in loving,

she still find her way out of those.

she become more stronger to face those matters and learned some lessons regarding love.

and she accept the fact that those moments are over and it will be just a part of her past.

being EMO is over

she's enjoying her life as it used to be.

her cheerful trait brought her to a happy ambiance.

for her it's really nice to be happy! :))

that's why the saying "LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE AND THINK POSITIVE" best describe her optimistic personality.